Empty Consolation In Habs' Squeaky Win
For some probably inane reason, the crevices of the cynical side of my brain wants to search out an old Blue Rodeo lyric to equate the state of the Habs these days, in light of last night's win over Toronto. A win that felt very much like a loss, for reasons I can't quite get under my thumb. This post feels like the beginning of a self - therapy session. Why Blue Rodeo and why now? I think I own maybe a dozen Blue Rodeo CD's (and I can ever be heard hollering after "Dark Angel" on the live disc!) and their cynical (especially Greg Keelor tunes) and self deprecating lyrics have always had a grip on me. They connect hockey wise with me since I found out what fans of the game they are. They've played Cornwall a good half dozen times and on at least three ocassions I've sought them out after shows for signings and chatter. A great buncha guys! In the mid '90's I saw them at the Forum opening for John Mellencamp and turned their five song 45 minute set into one long Greatful Dead - like jam, extending "Diamond Mine", "Side Of The Road", "Five Days In May", "Bad Timing" and "Hasn't Hit Me Yet" into the longest stretch of self indulgent soloing you'll ever see. It was my last visit at the Forum, and Jim Cuddy sang and played wearing a Habs home white jersey. Keelor, a Leafs fan, spent the night tugging on the "CH". A few years later, once my oldest starting playing hockey, I was at the old barn in town and a ragtag bunch were playing a pickup game in front of me as my daughter dressed for her travel team practice. It was Cuddy and the road crew hitting the ice before playing in town that night, and I later learned that the icetime during winter dates was some kind of an occasional contractual obligation for booking dates in certain towns. Like what the hell else are they gonna do for entertainment in Cornwall? So in that roundabout manner, Blue Rodeo enters my head hockey wise, at this precarious time, when the Canadiens need the added luxury of a shootout to beat a despicably disorganized Leafs time on a Saturday Night, wearing those ridiculous jailbird jerseys from a season none of us ever saw. I watched the third period of the game from a bar, a couple of casual, but know-it-all hockey fans seated next to me in front of the screen. It's late in the game and I'm sensing the Habs collapse upcoming. One of the two who doesn't seem to know shit about hockey, predicts the Leaf comeback just as it unfolds. Moments before, he was trying to give me a hockey history lesson, telling me that when the Canadiens first started out years ago as a team called the Hochelaga Habitants. Trust me, I couldn't invent this stuff! The shootout begins, and he asks, "Who's in nets for Toronto?" Johnny Bower, he is told. As I noted the other day, it feels like the Habs are on a never ending ferris wheel ride. Last night, at that moment in the bar, it felt like I was stranded at the top of that wheel while passengers were unloaded, my iron gut giving way to sickness. I was the guy in Keelor's "What Am I Doing Here", a paean to being caught up the useless desolation of bummed out surroundings. "On this useless night, A poster at the site yesterday, going by the pseudonym of "Patience Is A Virtue", took a respectable bite out of me, suggesting that my normal state of optimism had run afoul and it had disappointed him of late. I know. He saw good things on this team. I'm squinting! "There are nights full of anger, I wanna go I cannot put myself in a frame of mind to be generous with positivism. Adjectives feel like a stretch. A big fear as a writer - becoming phony! I want to see a game where the team can elevate its play for sixty solid minutes, consistently. Domination is not necessariliy neccessary (?), but it would be nice to see the Habs control a game start to finish. These guys, and I know they are trying their best, are uncapable. They need OT to win against patsies and get pummelled against teams with resilience. If I were to put it any other way, I'd be deluding myself. "She sees the world through rose coloured glasses And it's day after day Yup, it kills me to see my team this way. I despise shootouts because they are phony wins and I took no satisfaction at all in last night's result whatsoever. Had the Habs lost, at least I could have been furious. Again, I don't want to be this way. This space is a bummer to read and I can sympathize with readers like "Patience" because in this light, shit, I wouldn't want to read me either. I'd much rather be debating the notion of why Carey Price, after a decently good showing in Chicago that kept his team in the game, is sitting on the bench and stuff like Marc - Andre Bergeron, despite being a defensive minefiled, not being on the first PP unit. I've tried psyching myself up, noting yesterday that a Halloween trick or treat game held allure. Of course the usual Twilight Zone crap, how predictable, played itself out again. Maybe I'm all crappers cause it takes goals from unlikely sources such Latendresse, Hamrlik, Metropolit and Hal Gill (for chrisakes!) to knot the Leafs. I'm seeing all the good little things, improvements in players like Kyle Chipchura, Max Pacioretty, the contribution of Glen Metropolit, Travis Moen being a thorn, some glimmers from Guillaume, Plekanec's dependability and the stuttered sparks from the Scott Gomez line. I'm seeing all of it, but I'm seeing all of it not add up to very much. I cannot profess, at this time, to seeing very much light of day. Feeling this way, really stinks.
With you so far away,
I stand in front of this ferris wheel,
And I wonder what am I doing here"
Words that are thrown,
Tempers that are shattered and thin,
But the moments of magic,
Are just too short,
They're over before they begin
I know I can't stay
But I don't want to run
Feeling this way
Til I am myself again."
Painted skies and graceful romances
I see a world that's tired and scared
Of living on the edge too long
Where does she get off telling me
That love could save us all, save us all.
I keep hanging around can you tell me why
Night after night, yeah I know I should leave
But there's something in those eyes
That keeps me hanging on, I'm hypnotized
It breaks my heart and I don't know why."
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hey, hey, it hasn't hit me yet
wow man. that was beautiful robert. blue rodeo speaks for all canadian romantics. love to watch them in bars in new england, where they give it their all to crowds of 30-50, smattered with a few die hard fans who have made the trek.
you provoked me into a second post in two days, after two years of silently enjoying your top notch blog. how could i not respond when you directly addressed me and my optimism from yesterday , twice?! lol
ok, but seriously. i too was furious watching last night’s ridiculousness. almost jumped off the bloody couch in anger at numerous botched breakout passes, and weak finishes in the low slot. Gionta was as invisible as Andre, Gomez give aways abound, and Bergeron freaks me out. What the heck is Gill doing out there on the 3-5 penalty kill?! i wouldn’t trust that guy if we were up 7-on-5! and the penalties!!! i hope jacques tears a strip off them. i don’t wanna see another delay of game all season. the quota is full.
ah, but here’s the rub: they won. this still catalyzing chemistry experiment is .500 after its first month of rattling, ungreased internal combustion. things will get smoother. but i won’t repeat all my positive optimism from yesterday – folks can read it in comment #6 on your “Habs Road Woes Continue in Chicago”, if they like.
i will repeat my punch line: this habs team is better than any i’ve seen since the mid-1990s.
see, the negativism in the habs media just hasn’t hit me yet. i am waiting patiently for Martin to make music with this group of talented individuals that Blue Rodeo could never make. Happy, winning, confident, cohesive, consistent. that’s not in Blue Rodeo’s play book. but i believe it will be a natural progression for this group of go getters.
We should know by November 28. After games against Pittsburgh and Washington close out this fateful month to come.
by patience is a virtue on Nov 1, 2009 8:24 AM EST reply actions
Gill
Martin must like Gill, he puts him out for 3 on 5’s and 7 on 5’s!
He’s like 6’ 7’’ of minefield with a mouthful of nitro glice.
Glad you enjoyed the piece. My up and up is a work in progress. I plan to do lots of laughing, maybe even picking up tips from….dare I say it….Leafs fans!
I’ve often wondered how Toronto fans continue to exist. I image that if the world were blown up in an apocalypse, three living things would continue to roam the Earth: Cockroaches, Keith Richards, and Leaf fans.
Brilliant piece, Robert. It’s like you were in my head and heart and knew exactly how I was feeling. I’ve made my thoughts know since the summer on how I felt about our team and the direction that we have taken. I’m conflicted because I know that we probably can’t win the Cup but I also am a loyal Hab fan who enjoys being part of the day to day action. Some people say that our new players are better than last year’s crew. My answer to that is, “big deal”. Being better than last year doesn’t mean that you’re good enough to soar to higher heights. That’s a game that some Hab fans play and I want no part of it. The other subconscious head game is the notion that we are in the hunt to make the playoffs. Make the playoffs? Years ago, that used to be a given. Now it’s an accomplishment. I live in fear that we will keep going in circles on this merry-go-round until one day we slip and fall off. Then Gainey will be replaced and a new person (French speaking, of course) will come in to clean house and set down another new, long term plan. Why do I think and feel this way? I’m at a loss to answer that question. " It breaks my heart and I don’t know why."
Dunno about brilliant Steve, but it was all I had to tap into after this one.
I too want to see progression year to year, but it seems that kind of planning went out the window last summer.
A reality check was someone suggesting that Plekanec is about the only prospect that has panned out since 2000, and Gainey didn’t draft him. I thought about that for a bit, and had to agree.
So what? SO WHAT!!!
Habs fans don’t say “so what?”
It’s been 16 years with no Cup and I’m not about to start settling for mediocrity now.
You want interesting? I think they’re boring as shit. You settle for “interesting” next thing you don’t know which way is up. Then you’re like PPP and you settle for truculent, which is up tight with futile.
Snap out of it man
There’s no reason to be too depressed too soon Robert. I believe we said in the summer that this team would need a good few months to gel, so we should be grateful for any points in those months.
Plus, let’s not forget that Markov added to this mix gives us a PP, a use for Josh Gorges and a new top pairing.
You can lament Carey Price all you want, but you’ve seen tens if not hundreds goaltend for this team, so should know better than to think your happiness is attached to the back of that goalie sweater and not the front.
If you want some instant tonic for your madness, it is surely the Leafs. Mike Komisarek was involved in 3 goals against, and for all his talk of adjusting would do well to find his 2008-09 levels, and may never reciver to 2007-08 form; Toskala makes Carey Price look like a gold glove short stop, Pavel Kubina was traded for a lump of coal, and the team is as truculent as Brian Burke is modest.
Cheer up. You were just at a crappy bar, is all….
Mike Komisarek was involved in 3 goals against
Two of them are harshly judged to have involved hm when really they were 100% Toskala errors.
Pension Plan Puppets: A Toronto Maple Leafs blog and a group therapy session.
The Leafs for levity?
The Leafs have never been a tonic for me. It would be like laughing at a retarded kid falling down the stairs.
The reason I’m bottoming out is because this so called chemistry experiment’s gone poof!
I see the players out there, killing themselves to win and barely getting by. I’d rather we be pounded by Toronto than need a damn shootout just to emerge superior. I cannot and will not take satisfaction in that, or in blowing up a team I liked just to be a .500 club.
We’ve become the friggin’ St. Louis Blues, damnit!
You gotta laugh
Hey Robert:
I feel your pain. Honestly, I’ve spent this last month cursing and laughing at the t.v. as I take turns switching from frustrated to cynically unsurprised.
It really started to scare the hell out of me, because I realized that my game watching behaviour was becoming more and more a simulcrum of my father. And he’s a leaf fan!
If nothing else, I can thank this team for making me really reevaluate my approach to life as a habs fan. Gone is the sense of entitlement or deluded attempts to convince myself that we are always and in every way a cup contender.
In their place is an optimism that stems from watching a team work hard and slowly improve. I really think that my fanaticism has morphed from one sported by the ubiquitous big-mouth, glory days habs fan into something more akin to the pride taken in a local junior team. I don’t mean this as an insult to the habs. It’s just that instead of demanding a perfection that probably doesn’t exist (outside maybe of Pitts, and a few others) I’m enjoying watching all the game, even the mistakes, and not just looking to see if we can run up the score.
This doesn’t mean that I’ve stopped caring about wins and losses— I would’ve been super pissed if we’d lost to the leafs last night I assure you! Rather, I focus on what I’ve always loved about the game— speed, courage, skill, and the heart required to compete when the first three aren’t necessarily going your team’s way.
Hang in there.
Robert, I’m sorry to see you this way.
Try to look at the positives.
The Leafs might be the worst team in the NHL, but they will always be a pain in our ass.
Ok, we blew the lead. Halak was not great during the game, but he did look very sharp in the shootout.
We’re without our best player in the lineup, a new coach, ton of new players, and goaltenders and everyone on the team discovering their identity in the most demanding city to play for in all of sports. To say this team is facing the biggest challenges of all teams in the NHL is an understatement.
In the meantime, we’re .500, and 6-0 in OT.
I would say that is something to look at as promising taking everything into consideration. If we can get AK to pull his head out of his ass and really play, that would also be helpful.
It could be worse. You could be a Leafs fan.
Hope you feel better.
On The Bright Side
Their OT wins indicate they are able to handle pressure.
Unfortunately, the song I keep thinking of today goes “Na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na, hey-hey-ey, goodbye”. Those idiot fans singing that song with a 2 goal lead with just under 4 minutes to play gave the Leafs a point. For a supposedly knoweldgable crowd, the Bell Centre sure looked like they had never seen a hockey game before where a team scored twice in 4 minutes before.
Martin needs to quit sending messages to Andrei Kostitsyn and actually try and get him in situations where he can score goals. We don’t have the team where we can send messages to proven 20+ goal scorers with the potential for more. When you put all your eggs in one basket, it makes it easy to shut down this team. We got lucky with our depth guys last night, but if we’re running that Cammalleri-Gomez-Gionta line, the opposition will play tight on the shooters and protect the front of the net.
Max Pacioretty still isn’t a NHL player in my books.
Roman Hamrlik is earning his insane salary.
We do need a goalie to get going. Halak is 5-2 with a SV% below .900, while Price is 2-5 with a SV% below .890. Imagine if we had a goalie that was in the top 20 in the league.
Hockey blogging can't get any flatter.
The Na Na is a No No
Five seconds before the final siren. That’s how. And this team will get them used to doing it that why.
By year’s end, the Bell Centre will forget the lyrics!
I felt much worse when I watched a Canadiens team that was not giving full effort last season. This season’s team is pretty consistently giving full effort, as you, Robert L., seem to recognize. You cannot reasonably expect more from them, and to be sad about a team not able to give more than full effort is rather absurd.
So I think what you are sad about is that when it give full effort, we still don’t have a team like the ones we had in the Fifties, Sixties and Seventies. You still have at least remnants of that sense of entitlement that subdoxastic—I had to copy and paste his moniker since I was unable to grasp it well enough to type it myself!—says he has managed to rid himself of. It’s hard for some of us older fans to get rid of it completely, even after the 15 straight seasons over 16 years in which we have failed to win the Stanley Cup and, in fact, never come within miles of winning it.
That our team’s limitations became crystal clear to you in a game played against our arch-rivals, the Toronto Maple Leafs, made it all that much worse. What you are now suffering from is post-traumatic stress disorder or PTSD for short. You will recover with our help. You must keep the lines of communication open so we can track your progress!
What we have is a fairly decent collection of players who will continue to improve as they play more games. But they are not the best team in the league, nowhere near it. They do not have the level or depth of talent of the Pittsburgh Penguins, for example. But they do have potential, and we can hope for better team performances if some of our younger players come through and once our most consistent player, Markov, returns. Should our defence firm up and our goaltenders find their best form, we might even go places.
Like many others, I knew we were in grave trouble when the fans at the game began their na na na chant with a two-goal lead and almost four minutes to go. Even if karma did not go to work, it would certainly give the Leafs sufficient incentive to strike hard. And they did. In the context of the game, an overtime period or a shootout is incredible stress, and I say this as one who was a poverty lawyer in Watts 40 years ago and who worked with the mothers you describe. Our team reacted well to this pressure, as it has consistently this season. I take heart from that. Our team tries hard, and it is not without talent. As I said in an earlier thread, it is a good time to be a Canadiens fan once again.
To state the obvious, It is a long season. Let’s give them a chance before we pronounce judgement.

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